My name is Jessi. I am a lover of people, nature and child of God. I have been blessed beyond measure to steward a magical piece of land on the Central Coast of California with my partner and use it as a sacred safe place to do my work. I continually dive into my own soul work and look to those ahead of me for guidance in listening to my own inHER Compass so that I am being Spirit led to serve everyone one around me and the highest good of all people..
As a young girl, I had a big heart and was highly sensitive to the feelings and emotions of others. I was drawn into a desire to help others and knew God had placed a calling on my life. It was an intrinsic feeling. I was meant to be a part of something bigger than myself – almost as if God had chosen me to do something very special – a desired goal to transform lives – not for ego, but for healing. I was in tune with God’s whispers.
These whispers followed me into adulthood. Although these whispers were frequent and caused momentary joy, the natural state of being young and naïve opened up negative thought processes where I developed belief systems that did not serve my highest good. Through my late twenties and early thirties, I began to work through these non-productive thought processes and belief systems. I had carried enough guilt and shame that I began to see myself through the eyes of God. I started believing in myself more. I saw that I was full of love and needed others to experience the effect of these whispers at full strength to achieve my soul’s destiny – GIVE, GIVE, and lead those out of darkness and into light.
Through my spiritual journey after entering the Dark Night of the Soul – a time where I experienced a collapse in my perceived meaning to life, I discovered a newfound deep yearning to follow a connection with God’s whispers. I entrenched myself in the idea of bringing love and light to others as an example of living an authentic life - one that emulates vulnerability and breakthrough. As I took this path of faith, God began speaking to me more in depth. Inspiring artists of spiritual success started to enter my life in ways that spoke to my heart. They had confirmed the path I was leading was rare and painful but designed with the highest reward. I would be ascending a hill that would organically lead to conquering untrue beliefs of not being good enough, lack of connection, and give me a higher purpose to love. One of these spiritual leaders in particular was a critically acclaimed researcher of shame - Brenè Brown. She recently wrote, “We cultivate love when we allow our most vulnerable and powerful selves to be deeply seen and known, and when we honor the spiritual connection that grows from that offering with trust, respect, kindness and affection. Love is not something we give or get; it is something that we nurture and grow, a connection that can only be cultivated between two people when it exists within each one of them – we can only love others as much as we love ourselves. Shame, blame, disrespect, betrayal, and the withholding of affection damage the roots from which love grows. Love can only survive these injuries if they are acknowledged, healed and rare.”
From life altering passages like this, I saw confirmation and permission to commence my journey of living to my greatest potential, loving myself, and becoming God’s vessel in doing his work. I discovered that in serving others I find my own healing and transformation.